Its never the end of the world...

" Abhi Ishq ke imtihaan aur bhi hain...

Sitaron ke aage jahaan aur bhi hain..."

Yeh anth kahan hai Mr McKinley.... Yeh toh shuruath hai....Humare baad aur bhi aayenge..

-RDB

Amazing things happen. All the time.

I love the part of my day when I'm walking back from the gym at 8 pm. Listening to my shuffle...and gazing at the majestic buildings around me. I wonder sometimes...How did I get here?

I crib and crib and crib...about work whole day, but the truth is-I love my life right now.

I'm a "Blue Devil" !! Yeah !!

I wake up every morning... no more snoozing the alarm.. and can't goto sleep...so many dreams.... I'm living it again...the way I planned... years back... but I can't smell those flowers... I don't have my bike... and not as many friends. Things Change...but what the hell....Life goes on...

Love you guys.

Seriously.

My last post, 3 days back, pretty much conveyed what I was/am feeling. Tired. I have a huge bump on my head which doesn't make it easier for the thoughts to come through. And somehow I have this feeling creeping through me-I've had it in the past. A couple of times. A lot of things have begun to make sense now, at the same time, they don't make any sense. That can't be right. The problem of being "in a phase" is that its not just a phase-its a significant portion of your life. It cannot be ignored, not even for convenience.

I realize today that I'm a deeply scarred person. I hate to admit this. But its true. Its also very disturbing. Every single damn thing takes me back to the time where I learnt how it feels to have the phone slammed into your face. Or even actually ignored. How one begs for time when actually it should have all belonged to you. For that matter even words. And then you despise yourself to the point that you believe that you will turn a new leaf. Leap of faith. Not big enough to get you across though.

My thoughts are a little scattered. "Jaane kya chahe mann banwaraa...akhiyan mere saawan chala... " playing in the background doesn't help much. Its a beautiful song and somehow magically conveys my thoughts right now. Weird co-incidence.....

"Sajan ansuan mein kya zor hove

kya jor hove...
apne jiya pe...

mann toh maara yeh manchala...".

And unfortunately thats true.

I am tired. Period.

This an an after thought after a marketing class... which I'm absolutely in love with.  My professor asks really simple questions, most times. Like this other day he says, "Whats the one thing you outta do when you want to try and win a war?". We stare at him for a while, and then he says, "You go in with Overwhelming Force !!!. Thats how I live my life, when I need to do something, I go in with overwhelming force. There is absolutely no chance of defeat."

True that. I guess its right. Teachers do impart words of wisdom.