Those "EYES"....

Those eyes.......
Full of HOPE......
Full of ANTICIPATION....
Full of FEAR......

Those hands clasped tightly in prayer.... millions of them....

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TOTTI in front of the goalpost.... last 5 seconds... penalty kick.... the only bridge
between "VICTORY" and "DEFEAT" .......

And all i could see were those "EYES" ....

A nanosecond...... "Splash"......truth smeared onto the faces of the australians....they
lose... eyes full of tears....

And eyes gleaming with "pride".......with the taste of victory.....with happiness..... TOTTI running on the field.... people embracing...... euphoria..... Italy did it...

I just wonder what it's like to be in the shoes of these men....bearing the hopes of the nation they represent.... what its like to win a game...when you've almost lost it... what its like to fly on that field and see those "eyes"....that bank on you....that surrender your hope to you....

Amazing fight by the australians...... but one question here Dear God.... Didn't they pray hard enough? Why did they lose? Did you control any of it?

I guess GOD has kept the receiver off the hook...... and my time is running out....

BLACK HOLE

It's the same morning....same golden rays of sun seeping in through the rainbow-coloured glass of my window.....lovely hues.... oh its blinding me....take it away.....
Why is it.....that there are days....when you wake up to see only darkness around..... darkness that wants to pull you into its realm..... like the black hole..... unending..... encapsulating...... like the matrix......"You Can Check In.... But Never Check Out......."

Maybe why i'm feeling this way today is because...i have a hangover.....i read LOVE STORY by Erich Segal last night before i dozed off..... :> Written in block letters on the cover page of the book are the lines....."LOVE means never having to say you're sorry".

Thought about it for a long time..... Why is it that we want to believe in unconditional love but never "ever" find something like that??
Does it really exist??

I have the answer to that question........YES it does....... but you'll have to venture out....delve deep into the black hole......experience pain....sorrow........loss......tears...... before you can ever find it...... I've been trying hard too..... almost from the time i lost my best friend five years back..... she left.....and with her......took away my faith....in unconditional love....

It feels like it was ages ago that it happened.....the memories are frozen....well then if they are......why am i writing down this...... because the ice melted away yesterday..... it took me a long time..... to come to terms with the reality that people... you give your life to.....can take it away from you..... and all you are left with is ...."yourself"...... it took courage on my part to start trusting people again.......with myself.......my feelings..... my fears.....and most importantly.....my "HAPPINESS".......

And BANG !!...........it happened all over again...... blood oozing out of the wound again..... unstoppable.......

I lost another friend...... and the words.......oh they were deafening......."I'm sorry if i've hurt you"!! and i thought that love meant......never having to say you are sorry..... ??

It feels that i need to begin all over again...... from the scratch..... will I be able to do it?? Will i be able to love people the same way again?? I don't know...... i wish i could get out of this black hole...... i wish i could wander around the galaxies......amidst the stars...... i wish that it never did hurt so much after all....... i wish i was a small child...... and you could bring back the smile on my face by placing a candy in my hand........ Can't help it......can I?? Have to face reality.....

That's why they say that the worst part about loving someone... is to place all your trust in that person........and then........lose it all one day.......

Destined to BE....

Writing down a few lines.....from one of my favourite books.......

"It's a book that says the same thing almost all the other books in the world say," continued the old man. "It describes people's inability to choose their own destinies. And it ends up saying that everyone believes the world's greatest lie."

"What's the world's greatest lie?" the boy asked,completely surprised.

"It's this: That at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's "GREATEST" lie.........."

If You Can't Cure a Man...You Can Atleast Kill him ?!!

Mere Pyaare Bhaaratvaasiyon ! Our Law-Makers are all set and ready to give us.. as you say..."JHATKE PE JHATKA !!"
After the reservation hoopla, guess whats the new issue on the stand-"Should EUTHANASIA be Legalised in India ?" WHOAA ! Million Dollar question ! isn't it ?
This is a clear situation of Me against Myself ( no guys nothing to do with Jay Sean...). I say so because its really difficult to take a stand...its like one of those debates where i could speak "FOR" the topic and "AGAINST" the topic and then refute myself...
Here's an overview of what's going on in my tumultous brain...

Law Commission has sent a proposal to the Health Ministry saying that its high time now, that a country which comprises 27% of the population of the world, should take a stand on "MERCY KILLING" ( i never thought any kind of killing was merciful...sigh...anyways...)
Countries like Holland,Australia and Belgium have already legalised it...so its time for us ,too, to take a plunge..into the pool of death !! Daunting and Adventurous !! isn't it ? woo hoo !!

All of this perpetuated with the solemn demise of a terminally-ill patient Venkatesh in Hyderabad. He was on a life support system for quite sometime and when asked he said that his last wish was to be "put to death" so that he could donate his organs. But Alas ! According to the current law which states that this is possible only when the patient is declared "DEAD" by the doctors, his wish could not be fulfilled and he walked all the way to heaven...

Former Director of AIIMS, says that keeping a patient on a life-support system is neither sound care nor compassion and that the the law makers should take into account all the safeguards before putting such a thing on the Indian Constitution.
The question here is: "WHO PLAYS GOD ??"
Its not a game...make some rules...decide who wins...and who dies??
Are we ready to trust the same crazy people who have imposed an unfair reservation policy??

I personally believe that this law sends the entire concept of "MEDICINE" down the drains..
A question to all you doctors out there....the "HIPPOCRATUS" oath that you take..."I will not administer any lethal drug to my patient...." Whats your new oath going to be like ??

"I WILL TRY MY BEST BUT IF I CAN'T TO ANYTHING ABOUT IT ... I WILL PUT MY PATIENT TO REST !!" Amen.....THE END !!

I ask you....with what faith will your patients approach you? And with what conscience will you convert yourselves into "butchers"?

Being a biomedical engineer myself, i totally refuse to not believe in the "miracles" of medicine. Remember that advertisement that flashed on television some years back..." AIDS jeewan ka anth nahin...iske saath bhi hum jee saktein hain..."
How many of you filled up buckets with your salty tears while watching the movie "my brother Nikhil"? Did you want him to die? Rather i should ask...Did you want him to be "put to death"?

Life is precious people... i know this statement is cliched but thats all i can think right now when i visualise the scenario where i see the doctors turning into "Brutal Murderers" and hospitals to "Morgues"....

"Life is REAL ! Life is Earnest !
And the grave is not its goal...
Dust Thou art, to dust returnest,
Was not spoken of the soul...."

River Of Fire....

When we meet certain people,there is a chord in us which tells us that some familiar memory of a long gone era has been touched...

We do not try to be close, in fact we don't do anything at all. Things move so smoothly as if they have been laid out by a more intelligent being. We depart with the same smoothness....

Do we meet to part or part to meet ? What is the need to part ? Why is it so Important ?

Friends... family...lovers....even at times... nations.... part....

Are we fishes in a stream,moving along different contours yet in the same water with the same companion in hope of a greater world and in fear of being caught by the cruel beast... MAN ??